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Friday Five Baby! (it isn't Friday, but I'm bored of research, I have too many pages)

1. What did you dream of being when you were a little child?
I don't know. I always thought I'd make something cool. But, I'm not arty enough.

2. What did you think you might become when you were between the ages of 12-13?
Working with childern, but then I did my work experience and decided I HATE THEM! So, turned my thoughts towards Business, since it was the only thing I could do at school

3. What career choices did you consider as a young adult?
Marketing, anything Advertising (creative-side) but, now I like the implentation side of it, the evaulation and understanding what sells a product. I love Brand Development to, which is ace. So is understanding WHY consumers buy and do what they do. I kind of really enjoy the career choice at the moment, I;m trying trying my hardest to get on a graduate scheme which offers me the chance to do Branding/Selling/Communications/Customer side of everything. I'd love to work in the FMCG or Durables side of things. Failing that, an agecny would be ace, getting to pitch stuff all the time.

4. Did you follow along one of the career paths you considered?
I'm trying with Marketing, I don't want to do much else to be honest.

5. Have you changed careers since then? Was it by choice or necessity?
No career, but nothing has changed. I enjoy talking to people, finding out their wants, and I'd love to actually do a full Marketing Report/Plan or Media Plan, it would be ACE!

Please Cadbury/Nestle give me a job!

And - I'm either developing a paranoid mind, or I'm right. Not sure which, I feel like I'm being lied to, but I'm not sure how to approach it, because if I'm wrong - I have trust problems, If i'm right, then, it may upset me more then I know. I don't like liars, and the fact said person has told me that they can lie...Is annoying. I need tips please?

Oh sorry about the size, photobucket has changed that much, it confuses me! I will work on it!

Everyone has interesting stories to tell I do not.

I have a couple of complaints.

1. 02 Acamdey. It's the same corpartion as Carling, but with Carlsberg, it has the same beer, the same staff, the same nights, the same policies. The same over priced things. The same shit hours and the crap wages. You think working a gig venue is fun? Sure. When you work gigs. I work every wednesday and another day each week. I'm tired. I want sleep. I need sleep.
2. Placement. Who in their right minds assumes job hunting for a job within Marketing is easy? My placement is a min of 48 weeks. Make that a year. My placement has to be in Marketing. Nothing other then Marketing. Businesses cut Marketing first when in finicial difficulties. Businesses are in finincial difficulties. Real world job hunting, is hard.
3. Uni. How much work? I have to work to get a degree. I noticed. I have had much work so far, with 3 modules 100% coursework. All of which require more work then I have time. With placement hunting, job working, keeping a social life, seeing my boyfriend (whom I live with!) and going back home to see my family. I am tired.
4. Tim. Complained about the cleaning a bit ago....errr....I do all the cleaning, always have, likely to always will. You did the shelf in the bathroom - why couldn't you do the rest. It's two toilets, with rubber gloves you'll be fine. If I can do it, so can you. Oh, and don't throw people in the other halfs room when he isn't here. Neither should you complain about him either!!

In short - I am annoyed, stressed and tired. Yet, can't sleep since I was GIVEN a room, I didn't pick it. So, now, I'm grumy. Tired and whiney.

OK. Major update time.

( Nan//Aunt.. )
So thats a brief insight into that!

( Uni life//House )

The good news is. The head appears to be 100% heeled. Still hurts when I touch the area, but i guess it's still getting over it's self. No new injuries either. I guess I've had my serious injury this year. Hooray. The bad news is, as of tomorrow I have crappy food again. But, I do get to see my "uni friends" who I have missed, 4 weeks is a difficult task when you spend many many hours a day with them. I even miss people from my course. So I am looking forward to catching up with them so much. I am guessing the first thing I will do is clean and unpack. Then go see the people on my floor, then likely to go see Tim and then go see Joe. So, friends, then friend then from there I can decide what to do. I know there's not going to be any awkwardness between me and Joe, and I know that whatever happens, we're both far to laid back to care that much about something getting in the way of a friendship. When you get people who are laid back and take everything you say as you mean it, then your life is bad 3000 times easier. Yes. Everyone knows I love life. I try not to take it for granted, and i try to avoid letting the small things get to me more then they should. I try to save my energy for the people who matter to be. Wasting it upset isn't going to make sure I have fun. My goal in life is to have no regrets, so, a lot of things I take with a pinch of salt. Yes, I have spent far to long doubting myself. Yes, I have spent far to long feeling sorry for myself. My only regret? I really don't have one :) So what if my Dad is a prick? Yes, I have lost a lot of people close to me, but I know that somehow, they would want this. Happiness is the thing that makes my world go round, laughter from my friends, makes me happy.

I am annoyinly content and happy with life. I reckon this will remain like this for ages. I blame the fact I have started excersicing again, just releases happiness!! I'll feel better for it soon.

Then I will sign up for the 2009/2010 marathon depending on how I feel April time for entrying. I've also got round to registaring on the donor list. It's more likely I need a transplant then I'll give one. Plus, if I'm no longer in the world and I can be made use of, to help someone, of course I'm going to do it.

That, is under a cut. For peoples not so happiness. But, my stress levels feel better. Which, is weird.

1. Beth Ditto, The Gossip
2 Faris Rotter, The Horrors
3 Lily Allen
4 Jarvis Cocker
5 Karen O, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
6 Kieren Webster, The View
7 Kate Jackson, The Long Blondes
8 Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance
9 Thom Yorke, Radiohead
10 Lovefoxxx, CSS
11 Paul Simenon, The Good, The Bad & The Queen
12 Liam Gallagher, Oasis
13 Jamie Reynolds, Klaxons
14 The House Of Lords, The Young Knives
15 Tahita Bulmer New Young Pony Club
16 Cee-Lo, Gnarls Barkley
17 Ryan Ross, Panic! At The Disco
18 Carl Barât, Dirty Pretty Things
19 Jack White, The White Stripes/The Raconteurs
20 Jamie Frost, The Automatic
21 Serge Pizzorno, Kasabian
22 Eugene Hutz, Gogol Bordello
23 Albert Hammond Jr, The Strokes
24 Meg White, The White Stripes
25 Jay-Z
26 Keith Richards
27 Matt Bellamy, Muse
28 Pete Doherty
29 Brandon Flowers, The Killers
30 Statik
31 Richard Hawley
32 Alex Turner, Arctic Monkeys
33 Vincent Vincent Vincent, Vincent & The Villains
34 Lupe Fiasco
35 Alexis Taylor, Hot Chip
36 Mike Patton
37 Jamie Williams, Tilly & The Wall
38 Bobby Gillespie, Primal Scream
39 Mike Skinner, The Streets
40 Ali Love
41 Tunde Adebimpe, TV On The Radio
42 Mince, The Fratellis
43 Devendra Banhart
44 Sam Duckworth, Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly
45 Victoria Bergman, Ex-The Concretes
46 Jackie McKeown, 1990s
47 George Barnett, These New Puritans
48 Cat Power
49 Thorunn Antonia Fields
50 Amy Winehouse

It's an atrocious list the existence of which serves only to provide further ammunition with which to pelt the pathetic group of inebriated, braindead fools that NME employs as "journalists". Just writing the word "journalist" in that lovely sentence, with NME in there is a tad like using the pharse "he wasn't all bad really" in the same sodding sentence as Adolf Hilter.

“This year’s Cool List is a testament to the raft of hugely talented women who have taken hold of the music scene in 2006” said editor Conor McNicholas.

This list isn't the bloody bible, neither is the magazine. I'm not saying "I have the greatest hold of music in the world" it might come across that way.

1. Beth Ditto, The Gossip
2 Faris Rotter, The Horrors
3 Lily Allen
4 Jarvis Cocker
5 Karen O, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
6 Kieren Webster, The View
7 Kate Jackson, The Long Blondes
8 Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance
9 Thom Yorke, Radiohead
10 Lovefoxxx, CSS

Let me focus on the top 10. And the editors "comments" about this list. Beth Ditto hasn't  "taken hold of the music scene in 2006" i've i'm being honest, i've never even heard a Gossip track, so i can't really comment if they are any good or not - i will go listen to one of there songs after this now though. But if they are people who have "taken hold of the music scene" wouldn't everyone at least already have heard one song? Wouldn't one of there friends have told them about The Gossip? Yes, your right they would have done. So, she hasn't taken the music world by storm. The Horrors? Again, i've heard of them, i've seen them, and they aren't that good. Most people i know have said the same thing.  Lily Allen - ok in the world of pop, but no, she hasn't taken hold of the music scene this year. Jarvis Cocker - legend. But he had hold of the music scene in the 90s. Karen O, i think NME have been loyal to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs actually, it's refreashing to see them do that. The View - please, there are indie, indie is indeedy everywhere at the moment. Kate Jackson Long Blondes -  NME darling's, only correct she made an feature right? Gerard Way - MCR hold of the music scene? Let's see.. no, i don't think so. Thom Yorke - Radiohead, fair enough i love Radiohead, Thom Yorke's album is one of the best i've heard this year, but i dunno, NME don't seem to go with music, he has to be in there for the sheer fact that people think "oh yeh this list seems credably" why anyone would think a list of all things is a credable thing. I have no idea.

32 - Alex Turner. Who have been the band of 2006, who was number 1 in the list last year? Who has taken "hold" of the music scene. Arctic Monkeys. Best selling album this year, quickest selling debut of all time in the UK. I get lot's of people aren't fans, but in all honesty they have been the band of 2006. Also, Muse made a "comeback" this year, they have hold of the music scene. Lead singer from Muse number 27. What the editor say's is a pile of shit. Like most of the things, the people are at number one, because he want's the "Oh NME did the cool list, a weird overweight women was number 1, has to be about the music in that case" no it's not.

I'm very much aware the list is laughable. I had a good laugh when i saw it. Read it, pondered about it, than i read what he said. He annoys me beyond all believe. Some people on that list have amazing music. But this isn't about music. It's about fashion after all, not that i get the idea of fashion or why if it is about fashion she's at the top. But you know. It's all about fashion.

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I know. Another NME fueled thing. I dunno. Maybe i enjoy these style of things. But i will find something else new and productive to do with my time. I'm going to go back to typing about Economics and Congestion now.

Opinions and comments as ever are welcomed.

Hope you've all done something for childern in need. I can't remove my face paint, my throat hurts, my legs hurt, and i dislike cold water :P Mind you saying that, having cold flippin sponge thrown at me to stop singing, and someone going 20 quid and you stop and me going 30 and i might. Getting 40 quid to stop singing - rude! Than the joy of playstation gaming, people paying to play, and thee keyrings and than our buckets thorough week. Good fun :-) Now the crazy women in WEST yorkshire is on the tele. Please. SOUTH yorkshire is where i live. Pft. Honestly. But yeh. Was good fun, raised about 500-600 quid from the stupidness of our activitys.

TODAY IS TODAY = MAN I HATE YOUR BAND OUT.
NME boycotted the fucking single!! Tossers.
Milburn fans are sure it won't chart, let's get Man I Hate Your Band charted, just by ONE copy for me, and i might love you forever and ever!
It has to go Top 40. For the sake of my mental health. And i know they want it to go Top 20. Let's not disappointed.

I finally sorted out the UCAS thing today :-) My college can now send it off and do what needs doing. Hooray. Also people keep saying i'm a wuss cause my choices are pretty close.. let me share..

• Hull
• Huddersfield
• Lincoln
• Leeds
• Sheffield
• Teesside

So yeh. All pretty much close. If i go somewhere "on my doorstep" i'll go live in halls - partly because my house is pretty far away from Sheffield, and i can't be arsed with travelling no more - been there done that got 3 tshirts. So yes. I feel better now i have the personal statement handed in, UCAS form filled, and money paid.

I also went to see my mates (Danny&Pete) band today, playing in some small venue in the middle of no where, on stage at 4.30 they were. They have about 4 songs of there own, but they didn't play them. They played covers (i'm a critical friend, i've told them the covers aren't that good) Though they do Dance Dance better than FOB and standing at the side of the stage watching some of these girls faces to Dannys "moves" was amusing. Honestly. Drooling there were. They did the AM covers, it's terbbile, but you know i got  "This un is for Stace, she loves this band, and we love her" i was like oh yeh haha. Weren't 1/2 amusing though watching these girls faces, they screamed and Danny looked to the side and kinda laughed in the "what the fuck do i do sort of thing" than they asked for photos and went "when you get big.." his words that my love, you shall never ever see" hahaha.
Also. I got my Muse tickets today hooray for LMT fans being nice :-)
I'm also about to remove my Reading wristband, it's annoying me, i'll be freeeeeeeeee. And i'll pop it on my wall.
Now. I must go get my brolly and walk to Stephens house, long story. I shall share with people who ask me, and if you ask me. I might just answer.

Now. I'm cold. Got the hiccups and itchy. My mind is sure i have flees, my work has flees. Seriously. The big O2 part of it, the very top end of the call centre, has flees. They wanted me to flee spray the carpet. I told them that i've no idea how you remove flees from a building. So they hired someone. I used to hoover in my socks. Now i can't. Charming. It's because of the dog in the building, a blind chap works at a call centre. (I hit him with a mop once, or he walked into it, but it just forgot we had a blind dude in the building, i came back out water on the carpet blind bloke going "sorry sorry" i'm like shit! haha! anyroads) This dog is quite prone to things. It had the runs once. Lucky enough. I don't work weeks, only when i can. So, i didn't have to clean it up! Yep. My job sounds awful.
It's not that bad. The most exciting thing which has happened is smash glass, oh and we had a flood once and i was in on my own, rushed off me feet i were, cleaned all the toilets,empty the bins in the entire building, and cleared out this break out area. Was sat on my break sweating, eating a kit kat. The company phone rings, i answered with "hello? erm stacey here the cleaner" haha was told "we have a flood hurry up to thames water" i'm not a flipping plumber. I spent 10 minutes of my break, ankle deep in water with a mop cleaning the room, and turning the power off. Closing the room only to get "oh no, we have to walk now to get water" shame love. I'm bloody swimming here.
Random post over.

I was going to bed. But my bed's itchy. Oh i'm itchy i'm not sure.
Friends are weird things - i say friends, she hates me, and i havn't done anything to her. I'm starting to feel the hating back.It's weird. I thought i could trust her. Turns out i was wrong. On a roll this year for losing people i trust. Jamie, Lucy, Matt (damn you men!) 3 people who you trusted is enough to set you back when you already have issues with trust.

Pft. On the up-note i got VERY bored (ok i was avoiding work) when someone requested a gigography on a forum.
Look what i did. In a cut, because it's very long. I typed ALL this out :-) Go me. I love this band. Not bored. A year later, no album, demos, studio leaks, b-sides, a couple of singles, not bored.

Also. NME "fans" are the weirdest people ever - on the forum, because i was bored. Reading about Jarvis Cocker's opinions on LMT, and someone replied

"I used to like this band before all these threads started on them - no i don't"

WHAT?! *slaps them* if LMT ever get a cover story in NME. I'd be a bit dissappointed based on the type of people i'd start seeing at gigs. But i'd be quite happy with the fact that people are seeing sense. (yes because of the NME tag) but christ. Have some judgement for yourself kids, nme or no nme, lmt have no sold out. And aren't likely to do so either. Far to crowded.
I'm aware. There no AM, AM lyrics are ace. LMT lyrics are fun. AM album is "sheffield" and city life. LMTs will be "drinking, shagging, and having a good time" it works.

Oh deary me. My right side is hurting AGAIN.
You go to the doctors, get fixed than it comes back, and there is no way i'm having my water from my lung drained again. It hurts. Sticking things in my lung area!
Better go before Thursday, thanking thee please.

I got up this morning, felt rather ill :-( Why you ask, because i went against the doctors wise words, and hard some 'drinks'  i.e i had vodka and coke, vodka and orange, and something which i thought was snakebite, but i don't think it was. Silly Stephen not being able to understand VODKA AND ORANGE. Hmph! I had about 3 of them, become drunk without knowing so.
Found my ex, Matt, said hello.
Little Man Tate ACE! I lost viv, Rosie during man i hate your band i was like "oh well, octagon, 1600 people, here for them!" Them during sexy in SATIN! (latin you tossers!! tennies.. it's it's the nme effect.. minus nme!) I lost Stephen, than i found polo guy and we went "IT'S YOOOOOOOOOU"
My rib now hurts like fuck :-( My own fault. Doctors appointment on Monday. For my rib.
Lost a tshirt.
And hurt my ankle.

^^ Thats my ankle. The false has made the bruise look not as bad. It's 10 times worst than that. Oh well. You can just about see the dark ankle, and bruises. Aww. Bless it.

But. You no.
Update not needed.  Update given.

It's cold. I need a coat. Can't afford one. And no, the coats i like aren't 70 odd quid from Topshop. Waste of my funds!
I went to Sheffield, not for a shopping, a bit skint at the minute :-( Damn gigs!
I was stopped by a guy, called Adam, not that he stopped me for any good reason, ok it was a good reason.
But i wish he didn't stop me. Cause no there's 7 quid direct debit going out my bank. For a good cause like, not to 'Adam Funds'  it's for Breakthough which is a great charity and it's not like i want 7 quid going out my bank. I'm tight. It's a charity for Breast Cancer, it's the awareness month this month for anyone who didn't know. The stats for breast cancer are shocking.

In the UK:

The lifetime risk of women developing breast cancer is one in nine
Approximately 41,000 women and 300 men are newly diagnosed with breast cancer every year
Breast cancer causes more than 12,400 deaths each year in the UK
The incidence of breast cancer in British women is increasing by more than one per cent each year
One per cent of breast cancers occur in men
Survival rates beyond five years are improving, probably due to increased breast awareness, the NHS screening service, earlier detection and improved treatment
About 172,000 women in the UK who have been diagnosed with breast cancer in the past ten years are still alive

Now, if you sat thinking "yeh stace why do you care so much". 
I dislike talking about 'my background' and that crap, cause theres no need for you to know what family members has what. But i'm close to my aunts/uncles and cousins on my mums side of the family, they are a loud bunch and when you get them in the same room, it's always fun. My Aunt Denise (yes, Blondie ALWAYS pops in the head when i see her) she had breast cancer a couple of years back, and it scared me shitless cause of other stuff in the 'background' but after a lojng hard slog she knocked it for 6, and it's partly thanks to research and the effort involved by charites like this one which made this possible. Sadly, though the cancer is back cause it's a meanie, but i'm pretty sure she'll knock it for 12 this time, she's a strong minded women who deserves a bloody clap or something.

Chances are, you'll know someone who has had this, or will get it, or it could be you (harsh reality)
The more funding this charity gets, the better.

http://www.cancerresearchuk.org/breastcancer/
http://www.breastcancercare.org.uk/
http://www.breakthrough.org.uk

Just have a read, and thinking about it 7 quid isn't much from my monthly money. And if it helps just that 1% more, it's doing it's job.
I know theres so many great charities out there, i have a couple more which also have direct debits coming out my bank. But i tend not to tell people i give money to charities. They'll think i'm a softtouch.

I was going to bed. Or rather more to read my book.
But i didn't move.
Random rant. As ever.
My mate (i've known her since i was about 13) may have let me down with the kooks - which now i'm glad about cause my spot on gig goer friend Rosieeee is coming; she loves the kooks, and is alright with me leaving her on her on at the front or something for abit whilst i have a bash at crowd sufting :-) and she loves little man tate she's coming to that gig as well, and she doesn't complain at me for going to the pub, it's the other way round if we don't go the pub she complains. So Kooks all sorted. And i get to see LL which i'm pretty excited about! Hooray.
Going to get cape wear cape fly tomorrow, at the leadmill which is a good bloody venue. And Mondays at leadmill is kinda like student night and it's 80p (yep that's right 80 sodding pence for a drink!!) Lucy (the person who let me down with kooks and other things) is coming along, she's also bringing her friend Cat - who is one of these over the top people, who kinda flirts with anyone and everyone, which i don't really mind, just when it's over the top. She's rather loud as well - not that i'm not loud, but you know. She squeals. And than Lucy joins in and i kind of think "why am i here" and i like GCWCF can't wait to see the liveshow, i've heard good reviews about them, and i love the album. Just, need to mingle with other people there, or i'll go nuts at the squealing thing.
I also need to say how good some of my mates are, the friends i've made at college CAN be loud (drama students?) but they are quite amazing in the sense you have a problem, they won't faff around telling you what you WANT to hear, rather what you NEED to hear. Which is quite something. I've always hated the term best friend - i'm more one of these people who wants to get to know anyone and everyone, i'm not anti-social, i have my moments but i LOVE talking to new people. And the term best friend goes against anything i say, as in people are equal etc, so i tend to treat all my friends the same, if i let one fo them come to a gig for nowt - than the other's get that as well.
No special treatment unless needed.
But yes. All my friends are amazing.
Well, debatable at the moment with some of them, ditching me for there boyfriends, which oddly i don't normally mind - but it's when something has been planned for months and they go let me down for something they could do any time. And some of them aren't kind of there when i need them to be - which seems really selfish arrgh now i think i shouldn't say that, but you know when theres a point you need to know that someone will be there for you, and when you think they aren't it's like "shit who do i have?"
Oh. I'm quitting with my rambling.
And - this is a decentish song. And i took the video so.

I need to rant. But i don't no who or where to rant to.
Cause if i rant to my friends who live near me, than i'm ranting to people who need my support rather than me having abit of a 'crying shoulder' moment.

And i know that i'll just end up upsetting them more, when i've spent all day trying to make my friend at least laugh and smile, i manged that, she also sat down and had a cry and chatted to me about things. Which has made me feel even worst, cause she is one of the bravest folk i know and to see and hear here like 'poor her heart' out was abit upsetting.

And if i ramble and rant on here than i'm rambling on the internet to people, which is no different to rambling on msn to people but this is abit more public.

I did have a nice long lengthy rant last night which i spent ages flippin' typing and i closed the window after i typed it. My head also hurts cause it just hurts, i can't sleep right and i just dunno.

I'm so scene that it's friends only - meh, i like bandwagons look!