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proudtoberandom @ 2009-10-19T12:00:00

2009-10-19T11:07:48Z

Friday Five Baby! (it isn't Friday, but I'm bored of research, I have too many pages)

1. What did you dream of being when you were a little child?
I don't know. I always thought I'd make something cool. But, I'm not arty enough.

2. What did you think you might become when you were between the ages of 12-13?
Working with childern, but then I did my work experience and decided I HATE THEM! So, turned my thoughts towards Business, since it was the only thing I could do at school

3. What career choices did you consider as a young adult?
Marketing, anything Advertising (creative-side) but, now I like the implentation side of it, the evaulation and understanding what sells a product. I love Brand Development to, which is ace. So is understanding WHY consumers buy and do what they do. I kind of really enjoy the career choice at the moment, I;m trying trying my hardest to get on a graduate scheme which offers me the chance to do Branding/Selling/Communications/Customer side of everything. I'd love to work in the FMCG or Durables side of things. Failing that, an agecny would be ace, getting to pitch stuff all the time.

4. Did you follow along one of the career paths you considered?
I'm trying with Marketing, I don't want to do much else to be honest.

5. Have you changed careers since then? Was it by choice or necessity?
No career, but nothing has changed. I enjoy talking to people, finding out their wants, and I'd love to actually do a full Marketing Report/Plan or Media Plan, it would be ACE!

Please Cadbury/Nestle give me a job!

Leeds Pictures; and paranoid mind.

2009-09-03T21:23:41Z

And - I'm either developing a paranoid mind, or I'm right. Not sure which, I feel like I'm being lied to, but I'm not sure how to approach it, because if I'm wrong - I have trust problems, If i'm right, then, it may upset me more then I know. I don't like liars, and the fact said person has told me that they can lie...Is annoying. I need tips please?

Oh sorry about the size, photobucket has changed that much, it confuses me! I will work on it!

proudtoberandom @ 2009-02-22T02:52:00

2009-02-22T02:57:56Z

Everyone has interesting stories to tell I do not.

I have a couple of complaints.

1. 02 Acamdey. It's the same corpartion as Carling, but with Carlsberg, it has the same beer, the same staff, the same nights, the same policies. The same over priced things. The same shit hours and the crap wages. You think working a gig venue is fun? Sure. When you work gigs. I work every wednesday and another day each week. I'm tired. I want sleep. I need sleep.
2. Placement. Who in their right minds assumes job hunting for a job within Marketing is easy? My placement is a min of 48 weeks. Make that a year. My placement has to be in Marketing. Nothing other then Marketing. Businesses cut Marketing first when in finicial difficulties. Businesses are in finincial difficulties. Real world job hunting, is hard.
3. Uni. How much work? I have to work to get a degree. I noticed. I have had much work so far, with 3 modules 100% coursework. All of which require more work then I have time. With placement hunting, job working, keeping a social life, seeing my boyfriend (whom I live with!) and going back home to see my family. I am tired.
4. Tim. Complained about the cleaning a bit ago....errr....I do all the cleaning, always have, likely to always will. You did the shelf in the bathroom - why couldn't you do the rest. It's two toilets, with rubber gloves you'll be fine. If I can do it, so can you. Oh, and don't throw people in the other halfs room when he isn't here. Neither should you complain about him either!!

In short - I am annoyed, stressed and tired. Yet, can't sleep since I was GIVEN a room, I didn't pick it. So, now, I'm grumy. Tired and whiney.

proudtoberandom @ 2008-09-08T01:15:00

2008-09-08T00:35:25Z

OK. Major update time.

This summer has been utter pants. Firstly, way back at the end of May. My nan had a stroke, at the time of that happening, I was still in Woodville, packing. My nan mans a lot to me. So, I was naturally gutted. But kept my hopes up that it wasn't too bad. I got to the hopstail, to find out it was a lot worse then I was expecting, and she was unable to talk or move. The doctors said it was quite serious, and she had a couple more over night. Doubly gutted. I also hate hosptails. So, going all the way to Doncaster on my own, and gaining the courage to go in to the place was something, then watching this strong women, who has been through a lot in her 80 years on the planet, stuggle to say Hi to me, was heart breaking. Non of this process has been helped by my aunt. My nan has got better slowly but surely, but she will never be able to live indepentaly ever again. So can't talk the way she used to, stuggles to hold a conversation. She can't walk to quick, and stuggles to control her right side of her body.

My aunt has blamed me for my nan having a stroke. I don't control people's minds, if i did, I wouldn't have caused that on my nan. To continue with this, I have had consent bullying from the women, who doesn't seem to care about her own mother. She has told me I am stupid, that I don't deserve to be at uni, that I have stolen from my nan, that my mother has stolen, that I beg for things from people, that I'm selfish, and ungreatful. To have that said to you - once a week, is demorlising, to the point of, I started believing what she was saying to me.

Now - minus some details, my nan is now ready to come home (Monday the 8th), my aunt rang me today. To ask if I would quit uni, and care for my nan. Now, if she asked me in May/June I would've said yes. But, uni is the one thing that has gotten me through the summer, the thought og going back to that place, has kept me remotely sane. I said, no sorry I can't. But then, agreed to spend the week seeing if i like it. It breaks my little stone heart every time i see my nan unable to do something whihc she could back in May. I can't help her into bed. I'm emotionally drained from this experience. To the point of, I can barely stop up, but I'm to worried to sleep.

I love my nan to bits, but I need a break. I have gone to the hopstail every single day since she has been in there, I would do anything for her, but I know she doesn't want me to quit uni, and I know that she would be happier me there. I'd be happier there, i'd find my perky side once more.

Like I said, Uni has kept me going. Because of my nan being ill at the start of the summer, i didn't see Joe for 5 weeks, trust me, not an easy thing when he was on the floor below you for a year. But, managed that. And then started seeing him every weekend, which, was a much needed break. But, since I was having so much trouble at home, I would go to see him, and just be miserable, obviously, he would notice, and tell me it would be ok. And just generally be supportive, infact, I honestly have no idea what I would've done through all this without his support. Sure my friends have been amazing to, but he has taken some crap from me, and hasn't said anything, moaned at me, or even brought it up. I said sorry to him today when his parents went to explore the surroundings, he told me, it's ok, it isn't my fault my aunt is a pyhsco and that I care a lot about my nan. Then he told me I was way to selfless with everything,. I obviously disagree with him.

Then Zoe, who has also listened to me quite a bit over the last couple of months. I'm very much looking forward to moving into Eccy road housey! :D It'll be good to be with people I care about, peole who make me laugh, people who get me, and people who know when to leave me alone. People who will cook for me, and care for me. I'm looking forward to going back to uni, i've missed my uni friends so much over the summer, and can't wait to jst get back into the swing of things.

I can't wait to start my degree up again, I bloody love my course so much. I love every single aspect about it and aim to work my butt off.

My other friends havne't gone a miss either. I believe Rose and Katie have listened to me rabbiting on the phone endless times. And anyone else who I missed, It's quite late, and I'm quite worried! Please forgive me!

Obviously, Reading was a highlight. Seeing Rage was all kinds of win. Plus, they happened to blow me away, FUCK YOU I WON'T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME. Will never be the same again, not after a politicial speech and me being angry. I fucking love Rage Against The Machine.

As for live performances it will go Rage, Radiohead, Metillica and Muse. AMAZING.

So thats a brief insight into that!

proudtoberandom @ 2008-04-03T18:35:00

2008-04-03T17:35:46Z

proudtoberandom @ 2008-01-09T01:47:00

2008-01-09T01:59:42Z

The good news is. The head appears to be 100% heeled. Still hurts when I touch the area, but i guess it's still getting over it's self. No new injuries either. I guess I've had my serious injury this year. Hooray. The bad news is, as of tomorrow I have crappy food again. But, I do get to see my "uni friends" who I have missed, 4 weeks is a difficult task when you spend many many hours a day with them. I even miss people from my course. So I am looking forward to catching up with them so much. I am guessing the first thing I will do is clean and unpack. Then go see the people on my floor, then likely to go see Tim and then go see Joe. So, friends, then friend then from there I can decide what to do. I know there's not going to be any awkwardness between me and Joe, and I know that whatever happens, we're both far to laid back to care that much about something getting in the way of a friendship. When you get people who are laid back and take everything you say as you mean it, then your life is bad 3000 times easier. Yes. Everyone knows I love life. I try not to take it for granted, and i try to avoid letting the small things get to me more then they should. I try to save my energy for the people who matter to be. Wasting it upset isn't going to make sure I have fun. My goal in life is to have no regrets, so, a lot of things I take with a pinch of salt. Yes, I have spent far to long doubting myself. Yes, I have spent far to long feeling sorry for myself. My only regret? I really don't have one :) So what if my Dad is a prick? Yes, I have lost a lot of people close to me, but I know that somehow, they would want this. Happiness is the thing that makes my world go round, laughter from my friends, makes me happy.

I am annoyinly content and happy with life. I reckon this will remain like this for ages. I blame the fact I have started excersicing again, just releases happiness!! I'll feel better for it soon.

Then I will sign up for the 2009/2010 marathon depending on how I feel April time for entrying. I've also got round to registaring on the donor list. It's more likely I need a transplant then I'll give one. Plus, if I'm no longer in the world and I can be made use of, to help someone, of course I'm going to do it.

Wars and more!

2006-12-31T00:17:19Z

I know that people have high opinions on George Bush and Tony Blair, mostly bad. But in the light of the news today (Saddam Hussein's execution) i feel like i want to have a ramble/rant/essay styled thing on the whole "triangle" of these three people.
Now, i'm pretty sure i might make some 'suggestions' which people may not agree with. Sorry; but it's something people pride themselves up on, that's free speech (another rant for another day).

Firstly, everyone ask's if Bush & Blair were right to go to war, on the ground they said so. No. They wasn't. Iraq's economy is dominated by oil, i think 95% of the exchange earnings is from oil. In the 80s it had finacial problems, caused by the 8- year war with Iran (yes 80s and no, no one won!) this lead to the government having to borrow lot's of money from places. Iraq suffered massive economics losses from the war, i think (in dollars) it was $100 billion. After all the war ended (1988?) the oil exports slowly increased, with the construction of new pipes and restoring the damaged oil facilites. This helped the country (Iraq) repay the war debts. Now, wih th Iraq NEEDING the oil to keep the economy growing, and it's an important thing is the economy growing (we won't go into if it's a good thing or not.. because i don't fancy writing 4 essays in one entry) The reason for going to war with Iraq, was never in doubt in my mind, it wasn't for weapons, it wasn't to help the Iraqi people, it was out of greed for more oil, (did you not notice how the oil areas were the first to be invaded?) Now, i know that since the Gulf war the realtionship between Iraq, the US, UN and UK have been poor.

To be fair - i don't think Saddam would have allowed UN inspectors to destory their weapons. But, what country in their right mind would give up ALL there weapons? UK or US wouldn't. But, i still don't see on what grounds a war was declared. If Bush wanted to get rid of terriost (nice job..hmm) than why would he just focus on Iraq, there are plently of other countries which have terriost, not just the one. If he wanted to destory the weapons of mass destruction (which is a proven fact - Iraq never had any) that he should focus on the countries which have them. It seemed more like a personal vendatta against one country, and for oil, green and personal reasons are no real reason for war. I get that Saddam was a dictor, and the people of Iraq did need freeing from him; but did we really did to kill innocent people for the sack of money? No. We didn't.

Would have been nice if the US/UK was actually trying to help Iraq, and the only way my mind and skill levels actually would know how to help them - would be to give them power back - power back to the people - that has been acheived. In a brutal manner yes, but achieved all the same. Also, providie a market - funded mechanism which would avoid burden of the money by the US and other foreign countries - let them rebuild their own country. This would help bring Iraq into the economic mainstrem of the reginal and world economy allowing emerging leaders in Iraq to improve peoples life style and give people hope for the future (economic growth - would occur). This could be fincance by Iraq's strong oil market. This would be better than anyone else taking charge of a country, just, dis-mental the dictorship and give power to the people - and let the economy and government do it's work. It WOULD have worked. I think, thinking back about the stuff i read to do with this war. I think the reasons for it bugged me more than people saying "he should die" when in reality, what makes him any different from Bush doing what he is doing? Hasn't Bush killed people in this war? Hasn't he killed soliders of his own? Blair the same, do they deserve the same treatment as the ex-Iraq leader?

Iraq harbors or supports terrorism and we are in a war against terrorism.
Iraq has weapons of mass destruction and we are concerned they will be used or sold to others.
Saddam is a brutal dictator, kills many of his own countrymen and Iraqis deserve democracy

The last one - i agree with. But really. It annoys me the fact that lot's of people have died for 1 reason - which in theory, could have been done easier than it has been. And, now we've destoryed anything the country could have built back, i can't see any real reason for te lose of lives. I know Saddam was evil and all, but really, what does make him different from Bush/Blair? All they've done is used the above as an excuse to go killing people. It's almost (not quite the same).

I can't see it helping terrorism either, if anything, it's just going to add fear (and to be honest, terroism fuels on fear) into people who are 'at attack' so to speak, the people who suppoted Saddam are (and rightly so) going to be upset about it, i say rightly so, they have supported him since he first came into power, they have their polticial views and own opinions on the way things are ran - with the weapons they have, and the knowledge SOME people have, they could easily go and do something drastic, but, Bush/Blair afre more bothered about there 'image' to give to shits about the way people are thinking. Showing things on the news - that will NOT help anyone, nor does it put peoples mind's at rest - so, all that's been achieved out of going to war - is the death of a dictator and power back to the people, is the economy better? No. Are peoples lifes better - maybe, some people don't have houses or schools, and people have lost their family, but you know. It's fine. No it isn't fine. I'm not saying i want answers. I don't want the answers. I just think that if Bush/Blair are going to go to war on the grounds of terrorism, than go to war with the world. Not one country. Go wipe out N.Korea. WHAT? That's a dictatorship. But, N.Korea doesn't have anything you can both use to make yourself and your own countries better does it? No. So, this war was not about anything of the above - it was about oil and using excuses.
Both countries have enough problems without creating more. This, as all the war has done, created more problems, teh UK isn't all roses, i know of the problems and gaps in the economy, the US, well.. a country with tons of problems. Too busy being greedy because they have this armys/navys and people on boats to fight on land (Bush you tit!) to care about acutal people.
I hate potilics at times.
That was an rant and half. And i'm sure i could go on abit more about it, conducting a better argruement on the war. But i don't have the time. Or the energy. And, this isn't usefull for me at all. So.

That, is under a cut. For peoples not so happiness. But, my stress levels feel better. Which, is weird.

The "cool" list, the "what's in list"

2006-11-24T14:48:12Z

1. Beth Ditto, The Gossip
2 Faris Rotter, The Horrors
3 Lily Allen
4 Jarvis Cocker
5 Karen O, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
6 Kieren Webster, The View
7 Kate Jackson, The Long Blondes
8 Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance
9 Thom Yorke, Radiohead
10 Lovefoxxx, CSS
11 Paul Simenon, The Good, The Bad & The Queen
12 Liam Gallagher, Oasis
13 Jamie Reynolds, Klaxons
14 The House Of Lords, The Young Knives
15 Tahita Bulmer New Young Pony Club
16 Cee-Lo, Gnarls Barkley
17 Ryan Ross, Panic! At The Disco
18 Carl Barât, Dirty Pretty Things
19 Jack White, The White Stripes/The Raconteurs
20 Jamie Frost, The Automatic
21 Serge Pizzorno, Kasabian
22 Eugene Hutz, Gogol Bordello
23 Albert Hammond Jr, The Strokes
24 Meg White, The White Stripes
25 Jay-Z
26 Keith Richards
27 Matt Bellamy, Muse
28 Pete Doherty
29 Brandon Flowers, The Killers
30 Statik
31 Richard Hawley
32 Alex Turner, Arctic Monkeys
33 Vincent Vincent Vincent, Vincent & The Villains
34 Lupe Fiasco
35 Alexis Taylor, Hot Chip
36 Mike Patton
37 Jamie Williams, Tilly & The Wall
38 Bobby Gillespie, Primal Scream
39 Mike Skinner, The Streets
40 Ali Love
41 Tunde Adebimpe, TV On The Radio
42 Mince, The Fratellis
43 Devendra Banhart
44 Sam Duckworth, Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly
45 Victoria Bergman, Ex-The Concretes
46 Jackie McKeown, 1990s
47 George Barnett, These New Puritans
48 Cat Power
49 Thorunn Antonia Fields
50 Amy Winehouse

It's an atrocious list the existence of which serves only to provide further ammunition with which to pelt the pathetic group of inebriated, braindead fools that NME employs as "journalists". Just writing the word "journalist" in that lovely sentence, with NME in there is a tad like using the pharse "he wasn't all bad really" in the same sodding sentence as Adolf Hilter.

“This year’s Cool List is a testament to the raft of hugely talented women who have taken hold of the music scene in 2006” said editor Conor McNicholas.

This list isn't the bloody bible, neither is the magazine. I'm not saying "I have the greatest hold of music in the world" it might come across that way.

1. Beth Ditto, The Gossip
2 Faris Rotter, The Horrors
3 Lily Allen
4 Jarvis Cocker
5 Karen O, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
6 Kieren Webster, The View
7 Kate Jackson, The Long Blondes
8 Gerard Way, My Chemical Romance
9 Thom Yorke, Radiohead
10 Lovefoxxx, CSS

Let me focus on the top 10. And the editors "comments" about this list. Beth Ditto hasn't "taken hold of the music scene in 2006" i've i'm being honest, i've never even heard a Gossip track, so i can't really comment if they are any good or not - i will go listen to one of there songs after this now though. But if they are people who have "taken hold of the music scene" wouldn't everyone at least already have heard one song? Wouldn't one of there friends have told them about The Gossip? Yes, your right they would have done. So, she hasn't taken the music world by storm. The Horrors? Again, i've heard of them, i've seen them, and they aren't that good. Most people i know have said the same thing. Lily Allen - ok in the world of pop, but no, she hasn't taken hold of the music scene this year. Jarvis Cocker - legend. But he had hold of the music scene in the 90s. Karen O, i think NME have been loyal to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs actually, it's refreashing to see them do that. The View - please, there are indie, indie is indeedy everywhere at the moment. Kate Jackson Long Blondes - NME darling's, only correct she made an feature right? Gerard Way - MCR hold of the music scene? Let's see.. no, i don't think so. Thom Yorke - Radiohead, fair enough i love Radiohead, Thom Yorke's album is one of the best i've heard this year, but i dunno, NME don't seem to go with music, he has to be in there for the sheer fact that people think "oh yeh this list seems credably" why anyone would think a list of all things is a credable thing. I have no idea.

32 - Alex Turner. Who have been the band of 2006, who was number 1 in the list last year? Who has taken "hold" of the music scene. Arctic Monkeys. Best selling album this year, quickest selling debut of all time in the UK. I get lot's of people aren't fans, but in all honesty they have been the band of 2006. Also, Muse made a "comeback" this year, they have hold of the music scene. Lead singer from Muse number 27. What the editor say's is a pile of shit. Like most of the things, the people are at number one, because he want's the "Oh NME did the cool list, a weird overweight women was number 1, has to be about the music in that case" no it's not.

I'm very much aware the list is laughable. I had a good laugh when i saw it. Read it, pondered about it, than i read what he said. He annoys me beyond all believe. Some people on that list have amazing music. But this isn't about music. It's about fashion after all, not that i get the idea of fashion or why if it is about fashion she's at the top. But you know. It's all about fashion.

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I know. Another NME fueled thing. I dunno. Maybe i enjoy these style of things. But i will find something else new and productive to do with my time. I'm going to go back to typing about Economics and Congestion now.

Opinions and comments as ever are welcomed.

What killed NME?

2006-11-21T21:43:18Z

I was asked today "why do you hate NME stace?" After me just pfting. I thought i might give a productive arguement to why i hate NME, and i'm going to share my thoughts here as well. So. This will take ages. And no one will read my rant. Oh productiveness of today. Because my english is shocking. I know what's ruined NME.. i'm going to tell you that later on. If your still reading.

Let me write you a review...replace the X and song X with any band and song title.

"Song X starts of as if 1000 angels have decended on our soul with rapture and comfort taking us somewhere we've never been before. Just as your lying in your bath in the warmth what song x fills you with. Band X capture you unware as you become so vulrenable in your own comfornt with a chrous as if hells angels have rode into your town raping your ear drums with the sound of a thousand guitars put through some form of musical mincer while the violins screech away, battering the strings with a million razor blades. Add this to that splash of societys deep belly and you have a truely craft piece of genius"
Yeh. Stop being so damn clever with you fucking writing, and get to the point, i've heard the sodding song, it's crap.

I also think that the internet ruined them a tad, it became the way to find new bands - first. The only reason why people where buying nme was for that very reason, so when the internet took of with finding new bands - NME had to change it's style. And the above is what it did. So, can NME come back from the dead? Maybe NME should pay attention - i kind of feel like they are destorying the music industry from the inside. The avergae music fan will know a thing or two about music and the industry in general. It's made up of the every day fan, the fanastic, the musician and the industry types - all music fans at the end of the day. With the ablity to decide who they like. NME is a music community and it is only right for them to have an opinion - but as my example of said NME review above, they is no real opinion in NME. It's what is cool. For example, if a band makes the best music your ears have ever heard, but there not dress well, theres not a chance in hell of them featuring on the NME cover. If the bands music stinks but they have nice hair, you'll see them popping up every week. Also, NME stick the prices up once in a while.. a free CD often used, but the week later, no freebie still the same price (sponsership has taken away peoples faith in things to, wella isn't it for NME? Shockwaves!!) People aren't willing to spend they wages on a poorly written magazine, one people who have nice hair on the cover. People want proper music news, proper reviews, people want to see an 'ugly' band on the cover with them having an opinion about something. The only way NME can save it's self, is via it's website - and sadly, that's just as bad as the magazine. Most of the stuff is stolen from other websites, stuff which i already now.

NME is becoming basing it's self on fashion and treads over the good music. Your not telling me that Babyshambles are worth the top 10 album it got from NME? That is the only way they can jusifie they over growing coverage of Pete. It creates scenes and hype bands, drives me mad. The Strokes or The Livertines we were told by NME that they were god's gift to the world of music, both who fucking good and had potential but they weren't proper form when they first hit the scene. NME - HYPE HYPE HYPE. Of both bands. Another example, Franz and Cheifs both have a super fanbase that boost sales when they appear on the cover of NME. Like Panic.. boosts the sales of NME. Nothing to do with the music. The Rader feature is good, but we all knew Arctic Monkeys were around 18 months before they got that feature. Once NME hopped on board - they were "ARCTIC MONKEYS SUCCESS" If your face doesn't fit. You won't get in the magazine. Simple. A sad fact. I know some great bands who have been going for years, plugging away but for whatever reason "snubbed" by NME i'd rather them slag off a band than leave them out.

Music is infinitie you know. 12 notes x 8 scales x countless percussion styles x amount of instruments x amount of people in the world x amount of combinations to be arrange = MUSIC. Theres so much more music than what NME write about. Why are they writing about the same bands? Arctic Monkeys? Kooks? Panic!? What does NME stand for?

The passion what it had for music has long gone, it's about the money. The reading numbers havn't changed. Sadly, people seem brainwashed. Or just habit or something. Music isn't important to NME, but than to most people, music isn't important. There are people who just like music, and people who love music. I dunno. I know that sounds odd. But what is happening is the people who love music slate NME, other just tell people to get over it. NME is like an attitude. It's a tabloid. It needs a rival. Saying that. I very much doubt the introduction of a genuine competitor would improve the writing of NME. It's too far gone down the line of rotteness, i'm thinking NME is beyond all repair of gaining the readership it once had - real music fans, not fashion fans.

It's very good marketing mind you, focus on what's being talked about, grasp the chance, get the sales. No problem with that. What NME needs is to lost the cororate influence it has. It has a full page with people like Wella Shockwaves - "How rock n rock is your hair" and one review section sponser by Virgin. But PAGES of adverts, of tour adverts, of perfume, condoms the lot. Advert, after advert, after advert, after advert, after advert. NME reads like the Argos catalogue at the moment and its difficult to actually pick out editorial amongst the advertisements that’s made to look like editorial. Its one in the same thing now though isn’t it? NME is a business. Its not your best friend. Its not there to confide the best new bands to you. Its there to make you buy into the concept. There was a time that a band could get the NME cover on musical merit alone. Now its all about how photogenic you are and who your celebrity girlfriend is. What reason is there to put Babyshambles on any cover ever? The music is beyond vomit-inducing and the lead singer is a junkie. Because if you put Pete on the cover you can pretty much guarantee massive sales. People like to read about people fucking up. NME is exploiting this as they were the ones to deify him with one hand, and break his spine with the other.

I'd prefer a new magazine, still preferrably weekly, with even a hint of independence, proper researchers and no bias; that gets onto bands because they like them rather than jumping on the next bandwagon to pass the office doors. It's surely not an unrealistic proposition, somebody just has to be brave enough to have a go at creating something that is essential to passionate music fans, relying on qualities that I've listed (and more) to shift units and not trying too hard to meet the perceived wants of its target demographic (whoever that may be)

I dunno. That was a rambling and a half. If you did read it. Please comment it. I'll only ask the once. Going to post this on other sites as well. Myspace and the lark. Forums won't touch this length. Hope you all had a nice think.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-11-17T19:47:00

2006-11-17T19:47:41Z

Hope you've all done something for childern in need. I can't remove my face paint, my throat hurts, my legs hurt, and i dislike cold water :P Mind you saying that, having cold flippin sponge thrown at me to stop singing, and someone going 20 quid and you stop and me going 30 and i might. Getting 40 quid to stop singing - rude! Than the joy of playstation gaming, people paying to play, and thee keyrings and than our buckets thorough week. Good fun :-) Now the crazy women in WEST yorkshire is on the tele. Please. SOUTH yorkshire is where i live. Pft. Honestly. But yeh. Was good fun, raised about 500-600 quid from the stupidness of our activitys.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-11-13T11:56:00

2006-11-13T11:56:51Z

TODAY IS TODAY = MAN I HATE YOUR BAND OUT.
NME boycotted the fucking single!! Tossers.
Milburn fans are sure it won't chart, let's get Man I Hate Your Band charted, just by ONE copy for me, and i might love you forever and ever!
It has to go Top 40. For the sake of my mental health. And i know they want it to go Top 20. Let's not disappointed.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-11-10T19:48:00

2006-11-10T19:48:03Z

I finally sorted out the UCAS thing today :-) My college can now send it off and do what needs doing. Hooray. Also people keep saying i'm a wuss cause my choices are pretty close.. let me share..

Hull
Huddersfield
Lincoln
Leeds
Sheffield
Teesside

So yeh. All pretty much close. If i go somewhere "on my doorstep" i'll go live in halls - partly because my house is pretty far away from Sheffield, and i can't be arsed with travelling no more - been there done that got 3 tshirts. So yes. I feel better now i have the personal statement handed in, UCAS form filled, and money paid.

I also went to see my mates (Danny&Pete) band today, playing in some small venue in the middle of no where, on stage at 4.30 they were. They have about 4 songs of there own, but they didn't play them. They played covers (i'm a critical friend, i've told them the covers aren't that good) Though they do Dance Dance better than FOB and standing at the side of the stage watching some of these girls faces to Dannys "moves" was amusing. Honestly. Drooling there were. They did the AM covers, it's terbbile, but you know i got "This un is for Stace, she loves this band, and we love her" i was like oh yeh haha. Weren't 1/2 amusing though watching these girls faces, they screamed and Danny looked to the side and kinda laughed in the "what the fuck do i do sort of thing" than they asked for photos and went "when you get big.." his words that my love, you shall never ever see" hahaha.
Also. I got my Muse tickets today hooray for LMT fans being nice :-)
I'm also about to remove my Reading wristband, it's annoying me, i'll be freeeeeeeeee. And i'll pop it on my wall.
Now. I must go get my brolly and walk to Stephens house, long story. I shall share with people who ask me, and if you ask me. I might just answer.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-11-01T00:19:00

2006-11-01T00:19:19Z

Now. I'm cold. Got the hiccups and itchy. My mind is sure i have flees, my work has flees. Seriously. The big O2 part of it, the very top end of the call centre, has flees. They wanted me to flee spray the carpet. I told them that i've no idea how you remove flees from a building. So they hired someone. I used to hoover in my socks. Now i can't. Charming. It's because of the dog in the building, a blind chap works at a call centre. (I hit him with a mop once, or he walked into it, but it just forgot we had a blind dude in the building, i came back out water on the carpet blind bloke going "sorry sorry" i'm like shit! haha! anyroads) This dog is quite prone to things. It had the runs once. Lucky enough. I don't work weeks, only when i can. So, i didn't have to clean it up! Yep. My job sounds awful.
It's not that bad. The most exciting thing which has happened is smash glass, oh and we had a flood once and i was in on my own, rushed off me feet i were, cleaned all the toilets,empty the bins in the entire building, and cleared out this break out area. Was sat on my break sweating, eating a kit kat. The company phone rings, i answered with "hello? erm stacey here the cleaner" haha was told "we have a flood hurry up to thames water" i'm not a flipping plumber. I spent 10 minutes of my break, ankle deep in water with a mop cleaning the room, and turning the power off. Closing the room only to get "oh no, we have to walk now to get water" shame love. I'm bloody swimming here.
Random post over.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-11-01T00:08:00

2006-11-01T00:08:35Z

I was going to bed. But my bed's itchy. Oh i'm itchy i'm not sure.
Friends are weird things - i say friends, she hates me, and i havn't done anything to her. I'm starting to feel the hating back.It's weird. I thought i could trust her. Turns out i was wrong. On a roll this year for losing people i trust. Jamie, Lucy, Matt (damn you men!) 3 people who you trusted is enough to set you back when you already have issues with trust.

Pft. On the up-note i got VERY bored (ok i was avoiding work) when someone requested a gigography on a forum.
Look what i did. In a cut, because it's very long. I typed ALL this out :-) Go me. I love this band. Not bored. A year later, no album, demos, studio leaks, b-sides, a couple of singles, not bored.

Also. NME "fans" are the weirdest people ever - on the forum, because i was bored. Reading about Jarvis Cocker's opinions on LMT, and someone replied

"I used to like this band before all these threads started on them - no i don't"

WHAT?! *slaps them* if LMT ever get a cover story in NME. I'd be a bit dissappointed based on the type of people i'd start seeing at gigs. But i'd be quite happy with the fact that people are seeing sense. (yes because of the NME tag) but christ. Have some judgement for yourself kids, nme or no nme, lmt have no sold out. And aren't likely to do so either. Far to crowded.
I'm aware. There no AM, AM lyrics are ace. LMT lyrics are fun. AM album is "sheffield" and city life. LMTs will be "drinking, shagging, and having a good time" it works.

2 0 0 5

S E P T E M B E R

03/09/05 Barfly, Cardiff
05/09/05 The Howard, Sheffield
09/09/05 Fibbers, York
14/09/05 RoadHouse, Manchester
17/09/05 The Grapes, Sheffield
21/09/05 Barfly, Cardiff
24/09/05 Westcoast, Blackpool
28/09/05 The Charlotte, Leicester

O C T O B E R

14/10/05 No.15, Bolton
15/10/05 Nambucca, Brixton
16/10/05 JJ's (uni), York
20/10/05 Roadhouse, Manchester
22/10/05 The Attic, Accrington
29/10/05 The Boardwalk, Sheffield
30/10/05 The Voodoo Room, Sunderland
31/10/05 The Common Room, Forum, Sheffield

N O V E M B E R

10/11/05 Fibbers, York
12/11/05 Mixing Tin, Leeds
19/11/05 The Grapes, Sheffield
20/11/05 Leadmill, Sheffield
22/11/05 Fibbers, York
30/11/05 Roadmember, Northampton

D E C E M B E R

02/12/05 Barfly, London
06/12/05 The Underground Essex Uni Student Bar, Colchester
08/12/05 The Charlotte, Leicester
09/12/05 The Boardwalk, Sheffield
10/12/05 The Castle, Oldham
11/12/05 Fibbers, York
12/12/05 Digital, Newcastle
13/12/05 Tokyo, Huddersfield
14/12/05 The Voodoo Room, Sunderland
17/12/05 The Underground, Stoke
19/12/05 Mustang Sallys, Wakefield
20/12/05 Night and Day - Manchester
30/12/05 Kubar, Stockton on Tees

2 0 0 6

J A N U A R Y

15/01/06 Academy 2, Newcastle
16/01/06 Academy 2, Liverpool
17/01/06 Academy, Birmingham
18/01/06 Academy, Islington, London
26/01/06 Fuzz Club, Sheffield

F E B R U A R Y

10/02/06 Bierkeller, Manchester
14/02/06 Barfly, Cardiff
15/02/06 Barfly, Glasgow
17/02/06 Boardwalk, Sheffield
18/02/06 Barfly, Birmingham
19/02/06 Barfly, Liverpool
20/02/06 Fibbers, York
21/02/06 Barfly, Camdem, London

M A R C H

24/03/06 Club Nirvana, Wigan
25/03/06 Silhouettes, Hull
27/03/06 Colesseum, Coventry
29/03/06 Club Fandango - London

A P R I L

01/04/06 Empire, Middlesborough
25/04/06 Academy 3, Liverpool
26/04/06 Crawdaddy, Dublin
28/04/06 Ku Bar, Stockton on Tees
29/04/06 The Plug , Sheffield
30/04/06 Barfly, Glasgow

M A Y

03/05/06 53 Degrees, Preston
04/05/06 Fibbers, York
05/05/06 Cockpit, Leeds
06/05/06 The Social, Nottingham
09/05/06 The Fleece, Bristol
10/05/06 Barfly, Cardiff
12/05/06 Roadhouse, Manchester
13/05/06 Bullet Proof, Newcastle
16/05/06 Charlotte, Leicester
17/05/06 Little Civic, Wolverhampton
20/05/06 The Old Fire Station, Bournemouth
21/05/06 Pressure Point, Brighton
23/05/06 Sister Ray (Record Store), London
23/05/06 100 Club, London

J U N E

05/06/06 Magnet, Berlin
06/06/06 Uebel & Gefaehrlich, Hamburg
07/06/06 Atomic Cafe, Munchen
08/06/06 Underground, Koln
09/06/06 Paad von Troje (Music in My Head Festival), The Hague
15/06/06 La Maroquinerie, Paris
16/06/06 Hultsfred Festival, Sweden
18/06/06 Middlesborough Live

J U L Y

22/07/06 Music Live Festival, Doncaster
30/07/06 Kendal Calling, Kendal

A U G U S T

12/08/06 Summer Sundae , Leicester
13/08/06 Academy, Liverpool
14/08/06 T in the Fringe, Cabaret Voltaire, Edinburgh
15/08/06 King Tuts, Glasgow
17/08/06 Islington Academy, London
18/08/06 Academy, Birmingham
19/08/06 Leadmill, Sheffield
21/08/06 Academy, Newcastle
23/08/06 The Brickyard, Carlisle
24/08/06 The Green Room, Welwyn
25/08/06 Carling Festival, Reading
26/08/06 Carling Festival, Leeds
28/08/06 Fopp Record Store, Sheffield
29/08/06 Reveal Records, Derby
30/08/06 Fopp Records, Manchester

S E P T E M B E R

11/09/06 Gebaeude 9 , Cologne, Germany
12/09/06 Molotow, Hamburg, Germany
13/09/06 Atomic Cafe, Munich, Germany
14/09/06 Privatclub, Berlin, Germany
15/09/06 Das Bett, Frankfurt, Germany
16/09/06 Paradiso, Amsterdam
17/09/06 Rotown, Rotterdam
18/09/06 Flevhe D'or - Paris, France
21/09/06 Rescue Rooms, Nottingham
22/09/06 Underground, Stoke
23/09/06 Colleseum, Coventry
26/09/06 The Hubs, Sheffield Hallam Student Union, Sheffield
27/09/06 King's College Student Union, London

O C T O B E R

03/10/06 Student Union, Liverpool
05/10/06 Supporting the Ordinary Boys, Cliffs Pavillion, Southend
06/10/06 Supporting the Ordinary Boys, Apollo, Manchester
07/10/06 Supporting the Ordinary Boys, Assembly Rooms, Derby
08/10/06 Supporting the Ordinary Boys, Civic, Wolverhampton
10/10/06 Supporting the Ordinary Boys, Sands, Carlisle
11/10/06 Supporting the Ordinary Boys, Guildhall, Portsmouth
12/10/06 Octagon, Sheffield
13/10/06 Nottingham Trent University, Nottingham
14/10/06 The Charlotte, Leicester
15/10/06 Academy 2, Liverpool
16/10/06 Revolution Bar, Manchester
17/10/06 Edge Hill University
18/10/06 Tunnels, Aberdeen
19/10/06 Kingtuts, Glasgow
21/10/06 Loughborough Student Union, Loughborough
23/10/06 Fleece, Bristol
24/10/06 Warwick University, Warwick
25/10/06 ULU, London
26/10/06 The Stables, Camden, London
28/10/06 Northumbria University, Northumbria
29/10/06 123 Live (XFM Radio), Manchester
30/10/06 Cockpit, Leeds
31/10/06 Academy 2, Birmingham

N O V E M B E R

01/11/06 53 Degrees, Preston
02/11/06 Fibbers, York
04/11/06 CMJ Festival, Club Medway, New York,USA
05/11/06 Great Scott, Allston, Boston, USA
06/11/06 Mercury Lounge, New York USA
07/11/06 North Star, Philadelphia, USA
09/11/06 The Annex, New York
14/11/06 Unit, Tokyo, Japan
24/11/06 Paradiso - London Calling, Amsterdam
25/11/06 West End Centre, Aldershot
26/11/06 Cavern, Exeter
28/11/06 The Acorn Theatre, Penzance
29/11/06 Old Fire Station, Bournemouth
30/11/06 The Gloucester, Brighton

D E C E M B E R

01/12/06 Zodiac, Oxford
02/12/06 Northampton Soundhaus, Northampton

Yep. All LMT gigs from the VERY START. Right there. You think a band have toured lot's? Look at that!! 9 times. Not that much really when you compare it to that. Blackpool isn't on there. But Blackpool was amazing. Gig in a bed in breakfast - i think so!

proudtoberandom @ 2006-10-24T23:22:00

2006-10-24T22:25:58Z

Oh deary me. My right side is hurting AGAIN.
You go to the doctors, get fixed than it comes back, and there is no way i'm having my water from my lung drained again. It hurts. Sticking things in my lung area!
Better go before Thursday, thanking thee please.

OUCHIE PAIN!!!!

2006-10-13T21:26:59Z

I got up this morning, felt rather ill :-( Why you ask, because i went against the doctors wise words, and hard some 'drinks' i.e i had vodka and coke, vodka and orange, and something which i thought was snakebite, but i don't think it was. Silly Stephen not being able to understand VODKA AND ORANGE. Hmph! I had about 3 of them, become drunk without knowing so.
Found my ex, Matt, said hello.
Little Man Tate ACE! I lost viv, Rosie during man i hate your band i was like "oh well, octagon, 1600 people, here for them!" Them during sexy in SATIN! (latin you tossers!! tennies.. it's it's the nme effect.. minus nme!) I lost Stephen, than i found polo guy and we went "IT'S YOOOOOOOOOU"
My rib now hurts like fuck :-( My own fault. Doctors appointment on Monday. For my rib.
Lost a tshirt.
And hurt my ankle.

^^ Thats my ankle. The false has made the bruise look not as bad. It's 10 times worst than that. Oh well. You can just about see the dark ankle, and bruises. Aww. Bless it.

But. You no.
Update not needed. Update given.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-10-04T18:39:00

2006-10-04T17:52:04Z

It's cold. I need a coat. Can't afford one. And no, the coats i like aren't 70 odd quid from Topshop. Waste of my funds!
I went to Sheffield, not for a shopping, a bit skint at the minute :-( Damn gigs!
I was stopped by a guy, called Adam, not that he stopped me for any good reason, ok it was a good reason.
But i wish he didn't stop me. Cause no there's 7 quid direct debit going out my bank. For a good cause like, not to 'Adam Funds' it's for Breakthough which is a great charity and it's not like i want 7 quid going out my bank. I'm tight. It's a charity for Breast Cancer, it's the awareness month this month for anyone who didn't know. The stats for breast cancer are shocking.

In the UK:

The lifetime risk of women developing breast cancer is one in nine
Approximately 41,000 women and 300 men are newly diagnosed with breast cancer every year
Breast cancer causes more than 12,400 deaths each year in the UK
The incidence of breast cancer in British women is increasing by more than one per cent each year
One per cent of breast cancers occur in men
Survival rates beyond five years are improving, probably due to increased breast awareness, the NHS screening service, earlier detection and improved treatment
About 172,000 women in the UK who have been diagnosed with breast cancer in the past ten years are still alive

Now, if you sat thinking "yeh stace why do you care so much".
I dislike talking about 'my background' and that crap, cause theres no need for you to know what family members has what. But i'm close to my aunts/uncles and cousins on my mums side of the family, they are a loud bunch and when you get them in the same room, it's always fun. My Aunt Denise (yes, Blondie ALWAYS pops in the head when i see her) she had breast cancer a couple of years back, and it scared me shitless cause of other stuff in the 'background' but after a lojng hard slog she knocked it for 6, and it's partly thanks to research and the effort involved by charites like this one which made this possible. Sadly, though the cancer is back cause it's a meanie, but i'm pretty sure she'll knock it for 12 this time, she's a strong minded women who deserves a bloody clap or something.

Chances are, you'll know someone who has had this, or will get it, or it could be you (harsh reality)
The more funding this charity gets, the better.

http://www.cancerresearchuk.org/breastcancer/
http://www.breastcancercare.org.uk/
http://www.breakthrough.org.uk

Just have a read, and thinking about it 7 quid isn't much from my monthly money. And if it helps just that 1% more, it's doing it's job.
I know theres so many great charities out there, i have a couple more which also have direct debits coming out my bank. But i tend not to tell people i give money to charities. They'll think i'm a softtouch.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-10-02T00:15:00

2006-10-01T23:29:28Z

I was going to bed. Or rather more to read my book.
But i didn't move.
Random rant. As ever.
My mate (i've known her since i was about 13) may have let me down with the kooks - which now i'm glad about cause my spot on gig goer friend Rosieeee is coming; she loves the kooks, and is alright with me leaving her on her on at the front or something for abit whilst i have a bash at crowd sufting :-) and she loves little man tate she's coming to that gig as well, and she doesn't complain at me for going to the pub, it's the other way round if we don't go the pub she complains. So Kooks all sorted. And i get to see LL which i'm pretty excited about! Hooray.
Going to get cape wear cape fly tomorrow, at the leadmill which is a good bloody venue. And Mondays at leadmill is kinda like student night and it's 80p (yep that's right 80 sodding pence for a drink!!) Lucy (the person who let me down with kooks and other things) is coming along, she's also bringing her friend Cat - who is one of these over the top people, who kinda flirts with anyone and everyone, which i don't really mind, just when it's over the top. She's rather loud as well - not that i'm not loud, but you know. She squeals. And than Lucy joins in and i kind of think "why am i here" and i like GCWCF can't wait to see the liveshow, i've heard good reviews about them, and i love the album. Just, need to mingle with other people there, or i'll go nuts at the squealing thing.
I also need to say how good some of my mates are, the friends i've made at college CAN be loud (drama students?) but they are quite amazing in the sense you have a problem, they won't faff around telling you what you WANT to hear, rather what you NEED to hear. Which is quite something. I've always hated the term best friend - i'm more one of these people who wants to get to know anyone and everyone, i'm not anti-social, i have my moments but i LOVE talking to new people. And the term best friend goes against anything i say, as in people are equal etc, so i tend to treat all my friends the same, if i let one fo them come to a gig for nowt - than the other's get that as well.
No special treatment unless needed.
But yes. All my friends are amazing.
Well, debatable at the moment with some of them, ditching me for there boyfriends, which oddly i don't normally mind - but it's when something has been planned for months and they go let me down for something they could do any time. And some of them aren't kind of there when i need them to be - which seems really selfish arrgh now i think i shouldn't say that, but you know when theres a point you need to know that someone will be there for you, and when you think they aren't it's like "shit who do i have?"
Oh. I'm quitting with my rambling.
And - this is a decentish song. And i took the video so.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-07-31T23:02:00

2006-07-31T22:03:50Z

I need to rant. But i don't no who or where to rant to.
Cause if i rant to my friends who live near me, than i'm ranting to people who need my support rather than me having abit of a 'crying shoulder' moment.

And i know that i'll just end up upsetting them more, when i've spent all day trying to make my friend at least laugh and smile, i manged that, she also sat down and had a cry and chatted to me about things. Which has made me feel even worst, cause she is one of the bravest folk i know and to see and hear here like 'poor her heart' out was abit upsetting.

And if i ramble and rant on here than i'm rambling on the internet to people, which is no different to rambling on msn to people but this is abit more public.

I did have a nice long lengthy rant last night which i spent ages flippin' typing and i closed the window after i typed it. My head also hurts cause it just hurts, i can't sleep right and i just dunno.

FRIENDS ONLY

2006-07-20T15:02:14Z

I'm so scene that it's friends only - meh, i like bandwagons look!

proudtoberandom @ 2006-04-17T01:47:00

2006-04-17T00:57:17Z

Hmm, i'm bored and slightly confused/pissed off with lot's of things right now. (still wondering how to make this friend's only, anyways..)

Sometimes you feel quite worthless with things,not in the sense that you can't do stuff (i can't do stuff, useless. Doesn't get to me though, i know that, it's a fact..) But, worthless with other things, I'll start as i mean to go on. I'm always willing to listen to people with there problems, offer advice where i can and attempt to at least make them laugh or smile about something. What i don't like is when someone says to be "I just want to kill myself right now, and that's all i can say" I get some people say that with embrassment and some other things, i also get that it's not right to mess someone who feels like shit and doesn't think life is worth living, like trending on thin ice. Got to be careful with what you say. But, to here a friend say that to you, when they know what you think on the matter etc, just shocks me and hurts me a little bit. It's like there are saying in some strange way "Well, the people who love and care about me mean nothing go fuck yourselfs" Hmm. Oh well. What can you do? Nothing.

I also have a lovely bruise on my right side on my body, and it hurts ALOT. Falling down stairs isn't as fun as i thought it would be (why i would think it's fun i have no idea) but i walk with a limp now and turn around thinking "bugger bugger ouch ouch ouch" Hoping it goes by Tuesday. I have somewhere to go to, not on my free will or exciting or anything like that. Just something i should have got around to doing months ago, but i like pretending thing's aren't there for a while see if they'll go away, it isn't so pft, i shall go sort it out. Not me, but aye. Rambles = my thing.

Although i'm quite looking forward to Saturday, not sure if i'm still going with Tom now like, but he said in a text today that it's cool, we can still go to a gig together :D Tom's just a friend. Fact. Tall guy who would knock the shit out anyone. And he knows how to get to Magna, i'm sure it's a train ride and the number 69 bus. Says Magna, Arena, Sheffield i THINK. I don't like buses, and i don't know what time these buses come, something like one every hour. Naffness of Yorkshire Traction/First buses in South Yorkshire.

That's all for now..

proudtoberandom @ 2006-04-15T13:38:00

2006-04-15T12:43:17Z

I got bored, and made some icons, not that great, but anyways.

Only three, but i got me ticket thorough post today, has my surname on it and everything, how snazzy.

proudtoberandom @ 2006-04-15T02:28:00

2006-04-15T01:40:06Z

Hmm, what do people post on here than? Rants/rambles. I can do rants/rambles about nothing - i wish i could put it on my CV "Likes to rant/ramble in the early hours of the morning" I think it'll go down a right treat.

I reackon i will get around to editing it to Friends Only. Hmm. Wonder how i do that..

Todays/this mornings rant isn't anything of the sort of a moan, but i'm going to praise Snow Patrol, there new album is the best i've heard from them.. i love Open Your Eyes, that really is an amazing song. I do like a bit of indie music, and it really is a fine indie album. I know it's not exactly out in the shops - it leaked so to speak on the net, and i downloaded it. Bad me. Send the FBI. Or that new English "FBI" to my house - i'll just say "i've not put it on a CD, i've not sold it, it's not exactly breaking many laws" and i'm going to buy it - cause it's that good, won me over. I wouldn't have brought it - if i didn't download it. I wasn't/am not a huge fan of Snow Patrol, it was there last album, although "Run" is an ace song and i'm sure it's going down in history :D I'll be in HMV on Saturday the 6th of May, in Meadowhall if you want to know where i go to HMV, although i might go to the one in Sheffield if it's sunny, may have to bring some sunshine - and i think i might have money on the 6th of May, i should do.

Also - What? What you Got by a superb little band, called Little Man Tate is out on the 22nd Of May i'm telling you all to buy it, and many people havn't heard it, but it's a fabbity song, well worth a listen, the video will be ready to see next week. Shoot in Blackpool it was, a cold/windy/sunny day on the coast/b&b and i believe theres a fight going off in it as well, but what do i know? Nothing! And since everyones like into Myspak and all the jazz, give them a quick listen, won't take no more than 4 minutes of your time - if you don't like them, fair play - if you do, buy the single, the b-side is something special as well.